All is fine now. I'm slowly fitting myself into the culture here in NTU. It is scary to find out how I've closed up to many things in college just to be consistent with my studies. Not only did it invite indolence and apathy into my life, it induced fear in me. I knew these existed in me but I always told myself it would go when I entered U. No, it didn't - My start in university invited more uncertainties and confusion in me.
But, right now, I want to share with you a piece of good news - I think I've somehow successfully liberalized myself. Initial struggles seem to receive its answers. There is nothing to fear or feel embarrassed about. Just charge forward. Remember you can always do it! (: Leave doubts and unpleasant memories behind for what what doesn't kill you makes you stronger! (: